Has it been 6 months already??

Wow! 6 months sure does fly these days! I cannot believe Christmas is almost here again and this year I get to share it with 2 of the most important people in my life. I am soo blessed to have such a loving husband and a beautiful baby girl.

Life is a bit crazy right now and I am doing everything in my power to keep on swimming. Alex is working full time at Jet Blue (yeah!) and I am still at Miche Bag full time. Between the two of us we are able to pass Jocelynne back and forth most days, but there are a couple days a week where our schedules overlap and we have to find someone to help us out. Alex's family has been great at helping us out, but I think we are going to have to hire someone --unless I win the lottery, which is REALLY hard to do in Utah!. I am having a very hard time with the fact that I might have to hire a babysitter. For one I feel like I am letting Jocelynne down and I am not fulfilling my obligation as a mother to watch over her. For two I can't afford to pay $60 a week. I would give anything to be at home with her. I pray I will be able to work something out soon.

Speaking of Jocelynne she is getting bigger by the minute! She has her 6 month check up last week and weighed in at 17lbs! She is such a happy girl- most of the time- and LOVES to learn and do big girl things.  Her favorite things at the moment are eating whatever I am eating, spitting, saying baba, giving slobbery kisses, putting her binky in her mouth by herself, making friends with strangers at the store, and rolling all over the place! She has been sitting up by herself for a good month or two and had her first big girl bath tonight! Her absolute favorite thing in this world is baths! Her least favorite things are getting her nose wiped, teething, being alone, and falling off the couch. -- you'll have to ask Alex about that one.

The dreaded 9th month...

I know my due date isn't until May 22nd, but the anticipation is killing me! Maybe because I have been dilating and having irregular contractions for the last 2 weeks, but I am just ready to get this little girl here. It might also be because my swelling is getting progressively worse and it takes all I have to carry around these weights on my legs. Either way it is time.

Between friends, family, and the Internet people have been most helpful about giving out ideas on how to induce labor. I can honestly say I have tried ALL of them to no avail. -- except drinking Castor oil. I'm just not going there. --  The doctor has stripped my membranes twice and this first time I actually thought it had worked. I woke up at 4:30 am with stronger contractions that seemed to be consistent, so around 7:30am we went in to see, but they sent us home because I wasn't really progressing. So the next Dr's appointment she stripped them again and said I have a lot of water. My blood pressure is also going up as well as the swelling so if we don't have her this week she will induce me on Tuesday! I would love for her to come on her own, but I want to make sure we do what is best. I am still planning on not having an epidural. because I am already dilating pretty consistently she thinks it will go fast once labor does start. We will see!!

 As of today this little girl just wants to stay right where she is at. I know she is getting bigger and more uncomfortable so I have been talking with her about how much room she will have out here. I really hope this isn't a reflection of her personality!

I married a Prince!

With all the hype about the Royal Wedding Alex has been getting a lot lately that he looks like Prince William. I have to say at first I couldn't see it, but then more and more people started to tell him and I took a second look. It's true! receeding hair line and all. lol

Happy BIRTHDAY!

Happy 25th Birthday Alex Hector James Klc!

On Friday it was Alex's 25th birthday. I think I was more excited then he was because I was begging him to open his presents all week. I am not very patient and he was very firm in telling me his birthday was April15th and that is when he would open his presents and not a day sooner! So Friday morning I woke up bright and early and woke him up with a bed full of presents! I decided to go the practicle route this year and get him some good clothes. Plus I scored big at sears and found their clearance isle! So he got a pair of pants, shorts, 4 shirts, 1 sweater, 2 jackets, and his most favorite gift....

isn't he soo cute?

For his birthday dinner he wanted to go to Joe's Crab Shack. I am not a fish/seafood person at all but Alex LOVES the stuff and since it was his day I couldn't say no. My mom was in town for the weekend so she met us at the restaurant. We were relieved to know they had a non seafood portion of their menu as well. It wouldn't have mattered anyway because he was soo happy to just be there --it made my night. After dinner we made a Walmart run because the new Harry Potter movie had just been released on DVD (more postings on his obsession soon to come!) So we bought that, went to Menchies for Frozen yogurt and then back to the house to watch HP7. Last year I was still deciding if I wanted to date him or not so I just bought him a silly souvenir from Oklahoma. This year was the first time we really got to celebrate and I hope he had a good day.   

I have heard the first year is hard... luckly we have eachother.

I dont know which phrase best suits me this week... When life gives you lemons, or dont cry over spilled milk. We can't control the inevitable. Bad things are going to happen, and the timing is usually impecable. I just want to yell and scream and get it all out. I want to cry and say why me, but it wont do any good. There are life lessons that are unavoidable.

About 2 weeks ago Alex went to work to find out his department had been sold to another company that wanted to pay him half of what he was making the day before. He declined and his old employer handed him a final check. Poor guy. When he called me I could hear the stress in his voice and I tried my hardest not to let him know I was upset. I wanted to be strong and say all the positive things a wife is supposed to say, but then a small little voice reminded me we were having a baby in 7 weeks and I burst into tears. Mostly tears of fear-- the unknown is a scary thing for me. But when I got home that night we updated his resume and appliued for many jobs and tried to stay positive. My main concern is that I did not want this situation to weaken us as a couple.This is something we couldn't control. Alex was one of their best employees and such a hard worker it was just the luck of the draw. It came down to money. It always does. I remember laying in bed with tears slowing running down my facing just thinking about how much I loved Alex and there would be a door open for us somewhere.

There was a tiny crack in a door a few days later when his old employer called and asked if he could work a couple hours here and there for the same wage he was making before. He immediatly accepted because it is better then nothing, but to be honest I was not thrilled. All I could think about is what they put us through the last couple of days and now they are calling asking him to come in because they know he is such a valued employee!? Alex immediatly set me in m place and said there is no need to burn bridges. We need to thank god and take what we have been given. So its not the hours it use to be, but atleast it will provide until we can find him something better.

This past friday we drove up to Idaho to visit my parents and have a baby shower! It was just the getaway we needed and we were soo excited to see everyone. The night before we left Alex's clutch went out in his car and we got a lovely estimate of how much it would cost to get fixed. The car isn't even worth the money it would cost. So now we are in the situation of trying to figure out what to do and  I am asking again why me?? This again was unavoidable . Just another life lesson... I keep telling myself.

I am writing all this down not to be a Negative Nancy or for anyones pitty. I really just want to look back in 10 years and remember these times. I know that we can get through it. Honestly it could be worse, and I am soo grateful for all that we have been given. The shower in Idaho was a bit overwhelming for me. Everyone was so generous and gave us the cutest little things for Jocelynne. We are very blessed. Jocelynne is the light of our lives right now and she isn't ever here yet. She has given our lives more meaning and has filled our hearts with more love then we thought was possible to possess. I can't believe we are only 6 weeks away from meeting her. I cannot wait. In a world that looks a little grey these days we couldn't be happier for this special gift we have been given. I hope I can live up to her's and Alex's expectations as a wife and mother.

While you were out

Alex works every Saturday from 12pm to 11pm. I hate it! So after I did some laundry, cleaned the kitchen and picked up the bathroom I decided to make myself feel better and get a new best friend to pass the time. And it was delicious!! Every pregnant lady has to do this at least once. Jocelynne and I enjoyed the whole dang thing and didn't feel one ounce of guilt! I have a Dr's appointment on Tuesday let hope Ben and Jerry's doesn't plan on hanging around for the long haul.

Baby Klc

31 Weeks along and finally getting around to writing again. In my defense carrying around another human being is quite tiring which leaves less time in the day to get things done. Another excuse is that we are poor and have crappy Internet, and the cherry on top of that is that my computer cord has a short and sometimes doesn't like to charge my laptop. Good news is Alex and I got sick of the computer cord shorting and decided to take measures into our own hands. I am quite proud of the splicing we did! With a little electrical tape to cover the wounds it is now working like a charm!

On to more important things.

Alex and I are soo excited to have this baby girl in our arms. My whole pregnancy has flown by and then hit a brick wall right at the third trimester. Now time is ticking by because I am actually keeping track. To be honest being pregnant has not been half bad. I am proud to say I have not thrown up once, or had any extreme bouts of heartburn. I considered myself pretty dang lucky until my legs started to swell and I now have the pregnancy waddle. Because of the swelling and my Dr's recommendations I am now the proud owner of thigh-high support hose! Which I wear daily.... but by the end of the day my legs and toes still look like sausages hooked together by a tree stump. So I have put myself on bed rest when I am not working and am trying my best to drink plenty of water! I am soo lucky to have such a wonderful husband. Honestly. He not only puts up with my mood swings, but rubs my feet every night and doesn't complain. I am soo blessed he came into my life. I really don't think anyone else could have the patience with me that he has. I know he is going to be the best daddy ever!

Here are some fun pictures over the last couple of months. We have some really great friends that let us borrow their bassinet, and swing and I had Alex put the bassinet together.

We also chose a name for our baby girl. We were going back and forth between a few and then Alex starting calling her this one day. I loved the way it sounded when he was talking to her... so it stuck.

Yesterday we also finished up our Hypnobirthing classes! That's right... this girl is going to go all natural! I am really just intrigued by the whole process and really fell in love with some of the concepts from hypnobirthing. So we are going to give it a try. Alex is very supportive of my decision and is going to make a great coach. Now all I have to do is convince him to cut the cord!